I started several posts in the past month but they were just not working for me hence the silence. One of them had to do with summer's end which I wanted to publish, well, before summer ended. It seems pointless to publish it now and besides, it was a boring post anyways.
I've been thinking about being quiet, silence and just being present which I never seem able to do (the silence I'm talking about is within yourself, your soul). Not every blog post has to be accompanied with words. Not every blog post has to have a story. Not every blog post has to have a lesson. I know it's been said before, but sometimes the end product is not the most important thing rather it's the journey that really counts. The past 3 years have been a painful, slow, and emotional journey. And it hasn't ended. I try to enjoy the ride but I'll tell you...it's so hard. Sometimes, I want to curl up in a ball and wish all the pain and sadness away.
Not every blog post has to have words. Some of the strongest emotional reactions I can remember having are to art-photos, paintings, sculptures. I still remember seeing my first Van Gogh at the Metropolitan Museum. The colors burst off the canvas and I started crying (I have a soft spot for Vincent). Of course, my second life images won't cause a strong reaction...in anyone! But for once, I don't feel the need to weave some sort of literary hogwash with each picture.
The talking deep within I cannot silence but when it comes to my social interactions it's very easy for me to stay quiet. Especially if I am hurting. Especially if someone has hurt me. Sometimes, I wish people could read my mind and know why I'm sad because by choosing to be silent, they may never know or understand why I am distancing myself from them. Unfortunately, at this point in my life, I'm not big at fixing things that are broken even if they are easily fixable. If it ain't working, I will retreat but I know my actions will change and I will come around. I hope those friends are still there when the silence is lifted.
And the unthinkable has been done. I have talked and talked after I said I was going to do the complete opposite!
I am wearing tees from
terri.tees in all the pics. Terri has a unique sense of humor and it shines through in her t-shirt images. It always puts a smile on my face when I log on and see a package of tees waiting for me from her. You will definitely see more of terri.tees in future entries.
There are so many interesting places on the grid that I have yet to discover. I was in a very funky mood when I wrote this-reflective, contemplating, and stressed all rolled into one and it kind of shows through by the places I choice to explore. The last image is of my new piece of land. I'm just renting but now I can use my own trees, houses etc. It will be fun, I think.
Time to shut up now and be silent.
Parktown Zoo
skin:
Skin Within, Anaise
hair: couldn't find the hair. will post tp as soon as I find
denim:
Artilleri, betsy pants/dark blue
tee:
terri.tees
Bloom
skin:
!lmabee, umeka/strawberry pie
hair:
Artilleri, trixie
skirt:
Artilleri, carla circle skirt
tee:
terri.tees
Phonton Pinks
skin:
Skin Within, anika raven smoky
hair:
Clawtooth, lola's big date
shorts:
Artilleri, johanna highwaist shorts
tee:
terri.tees
New Home
skin:
Skin Within, sheeba
hair:
Sari's, silk road dreads
tee:
terri.tees
This is for all the beautiful souls we have lost in the past several months because hatred and racism still exist.
gay, straight,
It's so true. What would this world be like if we were all the same? Yeah, I don't want to think about that kind of world...ever. So that's why I'm wearing purple today.
(and for all my lgbt friends in nyc whom I miss with all my heart)
Frankenstein always frightened me growing up. I remember seeing the movie many times before the age of ten (the old black and white version). Something about this mumbling human monster with bolts sticking out of his neck, well, scared the crap out of me. 
The scene with the monster and the child always disturbed me but I never understood why-one minute the little girl was there and the next minute she was gone. Also, when the villagers are running through town with their torches, I was afraid for the monster. 
I saw the movie recently (well, in the last 10 years maybe) and I found it very sad. The monster was a very lonely and tortured soul. And what does this have to do with anything? I got a notecard last night that Flippery, Skinthesis, Evie's Closet, Angelwing Designs and No Strings Attached have collaborated to create an awesome and amazing FrankenFae (part monster, part fairy)!!
I'm wearing the frankenfae skin in green and the dress by Angelwings. Each store has a board with everything you need (skin, hair, dress, and accessories) but I've included an LM for all the stores.
skin and hair: Skinthesis
To survive do it right. You believe in the five.
My five fireflies
The Jewelry Fair ends today. The theme this year is Beauty and the Beast. My favorite sim is The Forest with all its colorful tents, cabins and straw huts. It kind of reminds me of a community of gypsies going from town to town selling all their beautiful and funky creations.
The scary place I chose this time around is Mulberry Horror which is a cursed town with really gross stuff and a...CLOWN (screams-I hate clowns *shudders*). Also, that really ugly looking lizard thing will do disgusting things to you if you let him. I spared you by not posting any pictures. 
dress: Rotten Toe
Halloween has got me super excited this year in both sl and rl. I thought it would be fun (and challenging) to do a daily post in October but of course, I haven't even gotten to the first one yet. But I still have 22 more days to bring Halloween fun to everyone!
There are a ton of fun and scary Halloween places around the grid and I'll be sharing as many as I can throughout the month. I visited Ghouls Manor where I was cooked, possessed, felt up by an octopus, attacked by skeletons and zombies and other assorted fun. Also, be sure to have your sound on because there are some strange voices to be heard!
skin: Skin Within, ahawi
I started several posts in the past month but they were just not working for me hence the silence. One of them had to do with summer's end which I wanted to publish, well, before summer ended. It seems pointless to publish it now and besides, it was a boring post anyways.
I've been thinking about being quiet, silence and just being present which I never seem able to do (the silence I'm talking about is within yourself, your soul). Not every blog post has to be accompanied with words. Not every blog post has to have a story. Not every blog post has to have a lesson. I know it's been said before, but sometimes the end product is not the most important thing rather it's the journey that really counts. The past 3 years have been a painful, slow, and emotional journey. And it hasn't ended. I try to enjoy the ride but I'll tell you...it's so hard. Sometimes, I want to curl up in a ball and wish all the pain and sadness away. 
Not every blog post has to have words. Some of the strongest emotional reactions I can remember having are to art-photos, paintings, sculptures. I still remember seeing my first Van Gogh at the Metropolitan Museum. The colors burst off the canvas and I started crying (I have a soft spot for Vincent). Of course, my second life images won't cause a strong reaction...in anyone! But for once, I don't feel the need to weave some sort of literary hogwash with each picture. 
The talking deep within I cannot silence but when it comes to my social interactions it's very easy for me to stay quiet. Especially if I am hurting. Especially if someone has hurt me. Sometimes, I wish people could read my mind and know why I'm sad because by choosing to be silent, they may never know or understand why I am distancing myself from them. Unfortunately, at this point in my life, I'm not big at fixing things that are broken even if they are easily fixable. If it ain't working, I will retreat but I know my actions will change and I will come around. I hope those friends are still there when the silence is lifted. 
And the unthinkable has been done. I have talked and talked after I said I was going to do the complete opposite! 
Parktown Zoo
